what happened to day 0?

i’m reading Don Quixote these days, and i have to say that Cervantes is one annoying dude! why do i even put up with his crap??–random asides, chapters that meander, etc. but what’s MOST frustrating about Don Quixote are the story-lines that are abandoned at whim. where does he get the nerve to leave me hanging like that??! oh…hmmmm…

[quick change of subject]

i went in for a blood check on wednesday, and i’m STILL VERY normal:
white counts- 4.9, red counts- 41.9, platelets 184, and NO blasts (i.e. leukemic cells). the fears of remission are abating, and as i draw closer to my 1 year (post-treatment) anniversary, i find myself settling into a normalcy…in other words, my world feels safe.

i mustn’t allow myself to linger in this safe world for too long because bleaches out all of those extraordinary experiences that i recently went through. this safe world makes me forget about the GIFT of cancership: why be normal when you were almost dead?

its best to be unsafe. (a little)

~ by lentaing on April 17, 2009.